Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Love me.
hi , this is a song by collin raye. Its called ''Love me''. It was introduced by my dad to me and though i haven hear the song it seems to have beautiful lyircs so here it goes.
I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923There it is...Hopefully someone can send me the song.=D
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said," Boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didnt like me none, but I loved your grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet, and run away together
Get married in the first town we come to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we supposed to meet instead
i found this letter and this is what it said
*If you get ther before I do, don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores all through, I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down, Darling wait and see
But between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you..love me.
I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church where me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said those words to her
His eyes filled up with tears
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you... love me
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
My Oooperation.
hi peeps...its 20th of december and its..5.34pm. I just had my operation.i'm sure many of you here haven been operated on before right?Maybe you want to know about my experience or put it simply, i want to tell you about my experience.ha.I am supposed to want to write every of my classmates a testimonial but i think i'll just forget about it. I dont have the stamina to do so.SORRY.
It was a Monday morning...I woke up to the yellow sunlight glowing on my face. Its been long since i ever woke up that early. 8.30am. My throat was dry and i am thirsty yet i cant drink because i am told to fast the night before and no liquid is allowed in my body from 4am onwards..so my mum and I got down and my dad drove us to the hospital...We did the registration thing.. and i am admitted to my ward. To my surprise/horror/amazement/delight/(watever u name it) i was in the ''children ward''. I mean the whole enviroment is very childish..they have a playground just outside the room..and in my room there are 6 patients and supposingly i am the oldest and that suck...Before i went in my ward i had this strange encounter.... There was this angmoh boy...he was jumping around smiling screaming almost as if he was mad..except that replace the word mad with happiness. The nurses told him to settle down and do his colouring but he iniited on going to the playground and when the nurses refused he cried...Its pretty funny as .. 1 second he is laughing like a madman and the next second he is crying. I dun understand?
The nurses brought me to my bed...I was told to put on the hospital ''pyjamas'' Then i have to go back to my bed to wait for the doctor. That time was around 11 in the morning and i had to wait till 2.30 until the nurse told me to get ready for the operation.i'll tell you about my bunkmates..lol.. i mean other patients in the ward
To my right is this girl..Her name is Yi ting ..I knew that because i stole a glance at her tag..She is ten years old and in primary 4 and i know because her doctor came in and asked her questions which i eavesdropped on.c'mon la..the doctor speak veri loudly la..She is a pretty and young girl...She has those kind of RGS or cresent girls or watever fuckin top girl schools kind of look..she is fairly tanned..bright-eyed..You should know wat I mean if you dont you are either blind or you are gay...When you have such a daughter looking like that at 10 years old .. you know that she is bound for greatness..
To my left is another girl..much older looking girl..maybe in fact as old as i am. She is very sick..every once in a while doctors will come and check on her .. and when i look at her she is sort of always having the ''paralyzed'' kind of look...Her table alot of esscence one..chicken esscence la bird esscence la... nest esscence la..dunno la..I didnt really pay much attention la..since her curtain is always covered...
At my top left is a toddler. He is a malay boy maybe about 1 year old who is still in the cage..i forgot wat u call that ...Around him is always his father .. Never seem to see his mother anywhere around..
In front of me is also a girl..after my op she gone liao..then replaced by one indian boy.
The top right.. is one young boy(like pri 4 that age 1 ) who only came in on the 2nd day.... Then there is one scene veri funni ..On day 2 mah.. we were having breakfast..Then the boy eating then directly infront is the girl and the girl also eating..Then the boy look at the girl and the girl look at the boy and eat..Then the girl lik shy shy 1... When i look at them , i want laugh ..then they look at me.. then i faster go back to my ''eating''. HA!
Back to 2.30 of day 1..... i was told to get ready for my operation la...Do you know it is not easy to get on a wheelchair..The nurse told me to get on the wheel chair mah.. i had to be wheeled to the operating threatre...I got in from the side ma.. i put the 2 arms on the side den i try to lift my ass in..den liek cannot balance cannot balance ... During the time when i was being wheeled inside the threatre i have alot of thoughts in my head la..I quite nervous oso..
Then i was in the Operation threatre...The threatre was big...abit scary also..about 1 and a half times of my room..i was the told to lie down on the operating table loh..then the doctor or nurse say wan to make me sleep..then inject the needle into my wrist...then let me breathe some air..den there i go ..i blacked out.
After the operation i was semi-concious la.. i dont even know where am i.. i only know the operation is over...Then he served me food..porridge .. It suck la..barely edible..I told my dad to buy from outside gimme eat..wah tt one thousand times better....soon my parents left the hospital la..then i am suppose to go to sleep but then i couldnt sleep la.. alot of thoughts in my head..then the girl beside me..(the sick one) the light keep on in the middle of the night one..she must be damn sick la..somemore my ear painful so abit hard to sleep loh..but eventually i got to sleep la..
I morning wake up eat friend noodles..OH YAH, the nurses ask me what food i want i said western they served me malay and chinese food never serve me western food one ...mad nurses ..lol no la..they damn good...the doctors came in the morn to remove the head bandage..Then later the doctors come to pass me the medicence and wanted to tell me what to do with it i told her i couldnt hear and tell her to tell my parents but then my parents not around..sometimes it seems when you need your parents they are never around .. when you dont need them they keep on want to tell you they are around..?
ok la..i am now deaf..i can barely hear a shit...so if you want to talk to me you got to write on a piece of paper .sorry for the inconvience. In conclusion , in the hospital you get treated like kings ..except that there will be minimal pain.