Sunday, November 05, 2006
How to save a life.
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Currently my favourite song. Hope you can relate to it. =D
Friday, November 03, 2006
fuck.you.
So, my keyboard's loaded with ammo. When we are friends, be nice to each other . Treat each one with genuine resepect and love and have no evil intentions . Its ok if quarrels appear, for we know that we will laugh it out someday later.
I always try to be nice, no matter who you are, shy or fucked up. I treat all my friends with genuine friendliness and no fuckin hypocrisy watsoever.
I hate it when people bully me, push me , mistreat me...in all PICK on me. I am always acting retarded , like a fuckin dumbass stupid looking clown . I am different from other guys.. I dun act to impress... I know guys like to act all macho to get girls attention and so on. Guys open doors , act like a civilized gentlemen for ..i dunno why. I admit in the past, i used to be like that. For me, i just wanted to have fun and I really enjoy it when all my friends laugh together . Happy Happy.
Its easy to see when someone treats you with genuinity friendship. When you are friends , it dosent mean telling things you like to hear, it dosent mean not making fun of you. Kenneth makes fun of me all the time , i cant pronouce ''Ch'', Chester laughs at me mocking how dumb i am all the time, Kenny is also mean to me. Of course it hurts, but only for awhile... The joke's over, its done and dusted. Everyone knows their limits and if they do cross the line, they will always make it a point to try to apologize... Of course , i will be angry and of course i will have that fucked up black and sour face but soon it will be over, isnt it?
You, seriously like to pick one me. I dont know why, maybe i am fuckin retarded looking or maybe i am a kid not cool enough or a kid not mature enough or you may think ''He's such a lamer...'' All you do is teach me lion dance. I'm grateful, I'm truly grateful and thankful for everything that you have taught me...I'm a very very very blur and slow learner. Seriously i suck at hands on stuffs. This is just another reason for you to pick on me? When was the last time you ever laughed because of me, i dont remember any. You may say that i'm not funny or my actions and jokes are super lame. But deep down, I know its is because A scholar dosent laugh at a blind man's jokes. You despise me.
Now take this. I am telling you right fuckin now, i am no fuckin pushover. Greetings , a big FUCK YOU lawrance. Now do i seem cool to you ? Or oooh, rodney's immature and a oversensitive screwed up kid. I was a kid wif 100% eagerness trying to friends with you . NEVERTHELESS, you killed him! You have just plucked your last straw. Don know what i'm talking about, here's some reference for your big headed guy with big brains! Oh ya, do you still remember i owe you 20 pushups? YES! remeber that time when we are lining up when i turn to smack kenneth on the chest and you , like a military nazi soldier said ''Rodney, you owe me 20 ah.'' Ae for god sake, i am no fuckin jew. Kenneth hit me on the chest and nothing happen to him. What does he look fucking Italian to you? You know Totti?Del Piero? Ahh. i bet you know this one. Materazzi. Your god brother.
Wed was one big day man. I get the chance to perform again. YAY! But you obviously dont like Meeee. First thing , when Penny was helping me tie my belt. You have to fuckin lash out like a dog, ''So long still dunno how to tie yr belt ah! '' Ae peash la, everytime training chester and kenneth tie for me ah, or the janitor? The reason I asked her to tie is because i think she tie will be nicer..Chu Shi ma.. must sui sui rite...Ahhh.. your emphasis ma and partly because i lazy oso la =D. If its Penny helping Tze ting tie leh, you will shout ah? Or will you use military cannon. No la, i think atomic bomb la. BABOOM.
Ok ready to go! I am taking the lion head and when i was walking past the gym , i turned to look at the hunks and angry upon finding out i'm gay you shouted '' See wat see! Cannot walk faster ah!'' That point of time , i am completely shocked man...to a very fuckin angry man. We were walking ,taking our own sweet time and you are only fuckin like 30 metres infront of me you want to shout at ME ah. Joey leh? Joey beside me , nevermind ah. Angie behind me , oso nevermind la. You nt happi scold me can liao ah. Ae u go fuck the dumbbells la dumbell =X.
Woah this part, horrible man. Tong Tong cheh i make mistake. Qi shi never move away , sian ah. u 5kg dumbell i 50kg one. Feeling fuckin guilty , Shou Gu finish immidiately take out lion head say '' Sorry leh.'' You giving me that face . ''Fuck u la, say sorry for what . You also hopeless liao.'' Tsk sian. 50kg heavy leh. Sorlli la.
Rain rain go away , come again another day. Those fuckin japansese bombers wan use play games wif dem. Heng never ask us play WWII man, like that i confirm pia atomic bomb at hiroshima one.You said , dont play games with them . Want to leave already rite. Ok fine loh, who wants to play with them sia...so stupid one deir game nt say soccer or wat. Joy and Zhijuan tempted la..Japanese boys too cute, cannot resist. I can gurantee you, if i am the only one who went in and play, i become the Lion Dance POW ( Prisoneer Of War ) liao.
Ok , still raining.... Nevermind climax liao loh. Joey cannot take drums up the stairs. You go '' Ae fuckin help la!'' or smth liddat la i dun remember la. You think what, i mind reader ah. Aba-ka-de-bra boom! Brain signal wave says ''Joey gt no strength. faster go help her!'' Ps ah, i now still learning that skill , haven master yet. Cannot carry she must say wat, i see she like cmi cmi liao i got run go help anot pcb. Then you must fuckin scold me ah. Or izzit i nt gentlemen as you. Why not you the gentlemen, carry the drum ask Joey carry the stand? Ahh.. never think of it right. Nvm , next time gt opportunities one. By now, my mood pendulum already swing half an oscillation already. I cant take it animore.
It is said , that ''yi ge ren shao shuo yi ju jiu mei shi'' (DUN LAUGH PLZ). i think that you are a very good leader of the lion dance club. Really , the people likes you except me.honestly.While reading this you may think that i'm just an immature boy because lawrance scold me abit then i want to angry.
I tried to take it but he plucked the last straw.
I got no balls to confront him .( Face to Face)
So i blogged.
You dont have to pick a side. I am not going to quit lion dance or watsoever. I'm not that idiotic and ____ . LOL. This post is mainly for him and only him. Maybe i have too much anger and emotion stuck in my body and someday will find that this is just immature of me , if so give me time to grow up. =D
Sometimes people say life's not fair. But no human is god and no one get to treat you the way you dont like and i'm quite confident i'm not a spoiled brat. I need to learn to stand-up and retalliate. i'm angry.
My friends will always be my friends. You have the most stuck-up attitude or the thickest magnifying class spectacles. I dont care. Treat me as friend , we can be friends .